Confessions of a whiner...

9/26/05 03:19 pm - yay pictures.

well most of my summer and year last year was devoted to this weedding so i thought id finally post some pictures from the night! i have A TON more so let me know if you wanna see them.

rehearsal dinner...

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wedding nighhhhhht.

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oh yea and did i mention we know the dance to britney spears' crazy?

well we do, and we did it.

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other random pictures from the park and the hummer on the way down to the reception:

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hahaha my family likes to start us young what can i say..

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haha me and ryan simpson...
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cold

8/24/05 05:12 pm

whhhhhatever. its done. i learned. i feel better after talking..and im over it.

school is NEXT WEEK. that is absolutley insane. summer always seems so long and then the last like...two weeks are so quick and i realize the past two months are such a blur. this summer was definitly quite different than any other. haha i think i say that after every summer...but i think things changed this summer. i guess you could say i grew into my skin. i finally feel like im growing up. im ready for school...and ready to graduate and move on.

aoksjfaifasdf. time for work.

Current Music: coldplay

Current Mood:

accomplished

8/20/05 12:00 am

its amazing how quickly things change...

asshole.

working tomorrow from 7:30-4. then having a day of catching up with my love samantha morgan.

im ready for school.

Current Music: scotty doesnt know..

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tired

8/14/05 10:29 pm - hmmm

wellwellwell. summer is almost over. there is less than a month left and im finally realizing that i have to stop fighting the idea of graduation and college because no matter how much i dont want to think about it...it is inevitable.

why havent i seen you yet? its a little odd...

this summer changed a lot of things for me..and it brought me closer to people i never thought id be friends with.

melissa...girl iv told you this from the beginning, you used to intimidate the shit out of me! but i honestly cannot believe i made it through my life without you until now. ahaha. you are one of the most amazing people iv ever met and it surprises me how well we clicked so fast. you were the reason i had one of the best days of my summer..and nobody will understand that day besides you and me. i love youuuuu.

caseyyyy. well twiz i sware we do the same thing every summer. we either hang out all the time or we dont see eachother at all. except this summer was a mixture of the two becsue for the first half i didnt see you at all and then we finally decided to be normal and hang out. i love you soo much and i know iv done some dumb things... haha but we are twizzles and we never seem to need help entertaining ourselves. i love our random adventures and the fact that i can talk to you about anything.

sammi..you are so great girl. we had hung out a few times but this summer we really started hanging out and i realized how much fun you were. adventures around town, crazy driving in woodinville and meeting so many random people..you are just so silly and it is so obvious to me why everyone loves you.

ryyyan. its hard to imagine this summer without you in it. and whats funny about that is if someone would have told me halfway through the school year that i would be hanging out with you i woudl have laughed at them. everytime we hang out i come home smiling and somehow you know exactly what to do to get me thinking for hours..even though sometimes that is bad. haha well..you make me a very happy girl so that is all im going to say!

wellllll now that this post has turned all silly and gotten me thinking.. i am goign to stop!

i hope everyone has had a good summer. make the most of the last 3 weeks!
<3

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sleepy

8/7/05 08:23 pm - MY BIG GLASSES BROKE!!!!!

so..i was reading my friends page as i usually do to keep tabs on people..and i stumbled across an entry that candice posted about what she wanted. and well..she inspired me to do the same. this is what would happen if things went my way:

you would call me when you got home..and tell me how much you missed me. i would finally get up the nerve to tell you what iv been afraid to say for the past few weeks. and you would completely agree. when i saw you...things would go exactly the way they do in my head...and the night would be perfect. things would be official. we would hold hands because you would know that holding hands is my favorite thing in the world, and i wouldnt worry about things becuase you would be so honest i wouldnt have anything to worry about.

the sad thing is that this most likely wont happen and i will be dissapointed. ;aokfashasdf. we'll see i guess.

mall tomorrow with casey ann. i am so excited. Tuesday..first day back to work, getting my hair done, and ryan comes home! thursday..work and THE REHEARSAL DINNER. i cant believe its finally time for the wedding. i got my dress back today....WEIRD. friday is girls day to get our nails done which will be fun and saturday is the damn wedding. asdkfjasdf.

THATS ALL. im home for good so call me if you wanna do something.

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Current Mood:

contemplative

7/31/05 01:45 am - picturessss

best day of the whole damn summer. i love these girls.

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we went to the beach...

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and swam in the water...

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and ran into silly boys from school who make us 'drop everything' haha

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and melissa and i got left alone in the water for the 2nd time!!
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"only at wildwaves" ..."what do they have special sun there?"
"i shave my legs everyday sometimes...."
"dont go under the dock its dirty." "LETS SWIM UNDER THE DOCK"
um...laughing harder than we have for years.
that kid could be cute...
"do i look dead?"
"i have gooseys on my legs!!"
"LOOK AT MY WRIST!!!"

you girls are amazing.

Current Music: foo fighters

Current Mood:

awake

7/30/05 12:04 am

oh my god.oh my god.oh my god. today...was seriously so amazing.

two trips to denny beach, then to martha lake..showered (well kind of) and then hung out with the silliest drunk people iv ever met.

i havent laughed this hard for as long as i can remember.

so many silly things happened today...i couldnt have asked for a better ending to the week.

skafasdf. pictures coming soon.

Current Music: all american rejects! yesssss

Current Mood:

silly

7/27/05 09:42 pm - yay pictures.

i love her.

Current Music: anna nalick. what else.

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happy

7/26/05 01:34 am

i hate when people dont call back. or when all you are waiting for is that phone call and it never comes.

dont ever watch a scary movie and then come home to an empty house. its not fun.

lame being stressed. lamelamelame.

7/25/05 03:44 pm

so im totally home!!! got home last night around....8ish and couldnt be more glad. i missed everyone loads even though i was only gone for a week. as for this week? no parentssssss. my house is lonely and quiet and i need company.

im leaving sunday for crescent bar with kailyn and her family. super super excited. i definitly need to just get away forget about everything. i have been getting myself worked up lately about things that i am not sure about and crescent bar will hopefully rid me of the stress and it will just be a fabulous week of catching up with my lovely.

speaking of stress. iup98agj.zSfq08346qapdsjfalkasd../

i dont know whats going on. im scared to ask. and im bummed..because if my worries are correct..then fuck.

birthday countdown: one month and 4 days. i know your all excited.

'ladf;kjasdf. thats it.

pictures from florida coming soooooooooon.

Current Music: coldplay

Current Mood:

restless

7/20/05 01:10 am - oh mah gawed.

well the time has come. im leaving in 3 hours. ashfawtasdf. in 24 hours i will be across the country. away from my bedroom and all of my lovlies. ahh.

today went from wonderful to terrible and then back to wonderful. i woke up so happy and then talked to a little someone who brightened my morning even more. finished up all my packing and stuff and then just hung out aroundthe house for a little bit. went to starbucks wtih kailyn to chat it up a little bit and saw the craziest old man, with his big purple bong just sitting on the table outside. we got some good laughs outa that one. came home....had a little drama with the fam, found out i might not be going camping next week and everything was lame. got in a terrible mood for a few hours but hopefully everything will work itself out. however, there is a chance i will be home alone from monday the 25th until saturday the 30th..so everyoen better come visit me!!

went to ryans about 10..and watched a movie wtih him and his sister. i love them both. seriously, that house is like a stress reliever. anyway. came home about 12:45 after a lovely talk and now i am here, updating this thing and scaring myself a little more about leaving. i just dotn want to go at all....

...and knowing that i wont be able to hug you for an entire week...sucks. the hugs are what get me through my day. aweoiyas;dfhasdjasdf.

anyway. ill be home sunday bitches. LOVE YOU ALL...HOPEFULLY I WONT DIE THIS WEEK.

Current Music: anna nalick...because im still obsesed.

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worried

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7/18/05 07:28 pm - i dont knowwwww about this.

oh me oh my. i am leaving for florida THE DAY AFTER TOMORROW. askhfa;wiasdfhaskfhaetgadsfjasdf.

lets not talk about how im scared because there is hurricanes..lets not mention the fact that its supossed to be rainy and windy with thunderstorms the entire time im there..yea. lets pretend im not scared out of my mind.

anyway. it will be nice to get away i suppose.. clear my head of all the random thoughts that home brings. i need a chance to stop and catch my breath. alot has happened this summer, good and bad, and i dont think iv really processed it all. i also need to realize some things and make some decisions..clear some things up with myself.

i will definitly miss everyone. unfortunately my phone will not be used due to massive roaming charges, but please!! text me and leave me messages even if i dont answer because i will still be able to get them, and i can call from my moms phone!

if i die..I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!

hahaha. ill be home on sunday. <3

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scared

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7/11/05 03:43 pm

im pretty content with things right now. i love the way you make me feel. honestly..i cant even explain it. haha trust me, i try but all that comes out is 'i dont know.' however, i will say that i am slightly frustrated/confused with everything and i feel like you arent telling me things. i just want things to be more clear. i wish i knew where we stood. but OH WELL. i guess a girls just gotta be patient? slow is better than too fasttttt.

i am leaving for florida in 9 days. so so pumped. coming home from florida the 24th and leaving the next day for camping with the fam!! possibly with ryan as well .that would be so much fun.

then crescent bar with kailyn! i think it will be a much needed time for the two of us to just catch up and be the sillies we are. i miss that girl sooo much.

the next two months are going to be super busy and it feels like the rest of my summer is already planned out. vacations, then the wedding immediatly after crescent bar and all of the wedding activities. dotn get me wrong, im really excited it just feels like my summer is going to end really quickly.

i miss alot of people.

OH YEA. AND IN CASE SOME OF YOU ARE FORGETTING....MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 48 DAYS!!!!

AUGUST 29TH BITCHES.

Current Music: howie day..im obsessed

Current Mood:

tired

7/8/05 12:49 pm

Happy Birthday Kailyn Elizabeth!!

6/29/05 10:32 pm

everything is wonderful. i am so happy and even though not everything is going the way i want it to, right now seriously nothing could break my mood. today was quite eventful. woke up rather early to take my mom to work, came home showered and then visited sammi at work. drank my italian soda until i seriously felt like exploding cuz i was so full..then came home and did nothing for a few hours, just the way i like it. took a small nap, and then went and got my hair cut!!! i cut off a few inches and now it like sits at my shoulders. after the haircut i went shopping with my mom sister and aunt and it was the best shopping trip in a long time. started out bad because we were trying on swimsuits and my stupid top half was stopping me from getting a very cute baithingsuit. but its okay because i ended up getting two tshirts, three tank tops, a cute necklace and the cutest glasses in the worrrrrrld. and now im sitting here so content listening to howie day and eating goldfish!

this summer has been amazing so far. and the best is yet to come. florida is in less than a month, then camping and crescent bar, and the wedding!!! i cant wait for the next two months. and then...SENIOR YEAR. at this point iv lost all fear of those two words, im just so so excited. its going to be amazing.

OH YEA. and my birthday is exactly two months from today!!!!

lovelovelooooove

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cheerful

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6/20/05 03:22 pm - the liiiiiist.

love

feeling beautiful
random hugs
long conversations that jump from one random topic to the next
riding in the car
listening to music
when you get a feeling from a song even if you cant necessarily relate to the lyrics
waking up to silly phone call
random visits
laughing at nothing
jamba juice
starbucks
the conversations that always seem to happen in starbucks
having messages when i get off work
buying new clothes
feeling wanted
sincere compliments
flip flops
going to sleep happy
waking up happy
finding a song you cant help but listen to over and over again
cuddling
movies
the drive in
having a crush
being crushed on
realizing its more than a crush
the hugs you never want to let go of
moments you want to relive over and over
getting butterflies
when you cant even think about someone/something without getting those butterflies no matter how many times you have before
summer.

hate

being replaced
feeling unwanted
being ditched
waiting for the phone call
feeling like the third wheel
getting excited for something to happen and then it not happening
stubbing my toe.
missing out on things because im at work
getting my hopes up
jumping to conclusions
people who think theyre better than everyone else
people who get treated like theyre better than everyone else
being treated like a 5 year old
being called fat, even if its a joke
pretty much any negative insult regarding my appearance
my dad 70% of the time
not having a car
being afraid to say what i feel
being jealous
feet

thats all for now.

Current Music: foo fighters-best of you

Current Mood:

contemplative

6/18/05 02:46 am

aaaaah. im so happy..

school is OVER. WHICH MEANS....we are seniors now. hoooooly shit. weird? yes. but very exciting.

finals are dooooooone!! found out that i got a 95% on my spanish final, and a B+ on my math final so im a happy girlll.

today was officially the first day of summer..,and it was pretty much amazing. i dont know if i could be happier. we went to the drive in tonight and pretty much saw all of bothell highschool there. which was annoying. but oh well it was fun anyway.

HOPE EVERYONES SUMMER IS STARTING OFF GOOD. love to allllllllllllll
<3<3<3

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optimistic

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6/7/05 03:12 pm

today was the seniors last day. very very depressing. pretty sure some of my favorite people ever were in independant living and now theyre gone!! today was probably the bvest class ever cuz all we did was sign yearbooks and talk and i love just being silly with them. tomorrow is the senior assembly and i think nothings going to click in until then. it doesnt feel like this time next year we will be seniors about to graduate. I DONT KNOW WHY but every single time i talk about graduation and college i just get really freaked out. it makes me nervous that some of the people i see everyday i will never see again. sure not everybodys leaving for college but still. things are goign to be so different and i think its finally clickign that its time to grow up and start talking about careers and such. it just seems like im just starting at bothell and all of a sudden we're registering for senior year and stuff. as;asasdf.

on another note. today was fabulous. even with the sad note of the seniors leaving i was still in a good mood all day long and hopefully tomororw will be good too. i have decided that random phone calls make my day. JUST to let you all know. i know you were wondering.

as for right now i am going to go eat somethign adn take a nap because i am exhausted from staying up all night doing the stupid independant livign project that was probably a huge waste of time anyway. at least i did it.

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5/31/05 10:01 am

well its pretty much been FOREVER since iv updated. this weekend was fabulous though. friday, shopping with mindy, then out to dinner at the macaroni grill. i bought two pairs of shorts and two skirts. then we just hung out at my house eating candy like we always do.

saturday while my parents helped my cousins move into their new apartment i worked from 12:30-9. it actually wasnt that bad cuz it was pretty busy but i still despise 8 hour days.

sunday worked from 11:15-7:15, came home and we had a barbeque/bonfire. very fun and i got to come home from work to have everyone there. also got two new shirts, and got to work guest service for a long time at work. strangly, i really enjoy working guest service!

monday: slept in a little bit then went shoppping with mindy aunt pattie jessica and my sister. ended up buying a pair of shorts, 6 shirts for myself , and one for my mom becuase im just that nice of a daughter. we also went out to lunch at claim jumper and it was scrumptious. after shoppign i hung out at jess's apartment for a little bit then came home around 7 and did nothing.

today i am doing nothing. i have to work from 6-10 but i dont think it will be too bad.

how was everyones weekend? i want to hear about prom!!
<3

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bored

5/9/05 07:29 pm

so today has pretty much turned into the worst day ever. school was fine (minus one little factor that i will follow up on tomorrow) until 6th period when i found otu i failed my math test. dropping my A to a C. I have worked so hard for that A and im so pissed and dissapointed that now i have a fucking C again. Whats worse is i actually felt like i did good on that test. and apparently theres like a total of 5 people who failed. nice being the stupid girl. i was on the verge of tears the entire period, sitting quietly. i came home, broke down and baweled on the phone with my mom, and then emailed my math teacher. i think im staying after school one day this week to talk to her about things and see what we can do about my grade.

after that little event kailyn jeff and i went to redmond. starbucks and ben franklin, almost dieing and laughing really hard on the freeway. it was just what i needed and very fun. so here i am thinking my bad day is over when i come home and it all starts over.

i got in a huge fight with my dad, full of name calling and screamign. due to my lovely math test and mood of the day i was in tears in a matter of two minutes. then my mom gets home and we get in a huge fight as well and i have been bawling for about an hour. today sucks. thats about it.

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Confessions of a whiner...

9/26/05 03:19 pm - yay pictures.

8/24/05 05:12 pm

8/20/05 12:00 am

8/14/05 10:29 pm - hmmm

8/7/05 08:23 pm - MY BIG GLASSES BROKE!!!!!

7/31/05 01:45 am - picturessss

7/30/05 12:04 am

7/27/05 09:42 pm - yay pictures.

7/26/05 01:34 am

7/25/05 03:44 pm

7/20/05 01:10 am - oh mah gawed.

7/18/05 07:28 pm - i dont knowwwww about this.

7/11/05 03:43 pm

7/8/05 12:49 pm

6/29/05 10:32 pm

6/20/05 03:22 pm - the liiiiiist.

6/18/05 02:46 am

6/7/05 03:12 pm

5/31/05 10:01 am

5/9/05 07:29 pm